(Erase my love...letting go...)
It's pretty interesting, not to mention amusing, how fate can get intertwined and entangled, and then just break off from each other to form completely new destinies.
Watching from the sidelines wasn't difficult, although it does drag you into the situation alittle bit here and there. But otherwise, I was completely free from any entanglements that could have suffocated me in the first place.
Come to think of it, it's really surprising how I could have been (or was previously) in the picture, and when I pulled out of the situation, discovered another surprising find of sorts, where someone else stepped in and thus, a new fate cum destiny was born.
Certainly felt like I gave up my fate (or should that be my unfateful fate) so that 2 other fates could be bound together, haha. Yea, but still...I can't stop thinking about this seemingly interconnected situation, and yes, it definitely looks like something out of a korean drama's script.
Hard to believe, but the 'sad/depressed/forlorn/regretful/giving up/waiting for him/her' kind of scenario and emotions that you see in korean dramas are somewhat vivid adaptations of real-life experiences, much like what I've witnessed and heard within my life as well.
So is it cruel fate that has blindsided this situation against my favor without any chances bestowed upon me, OR has fate brought mercy to me, for realising these things earlier in advance, and pulled me out of the trap of emotions and despair right before I sank deeper, and therefore had helped kept myself in a clear state of mind? Probably both are true, but who's to say which overrules the other? I guess its hard to tell, and of course, hard to comprehend such stuff. Even for myself.
Nevertheless, feelings had/have been hurt, fates have changed dramatically, life still goes on normally for me (since its already not too much of a concern for me), but I can't help thinking about the others who were caught unawares within this entanglement of destined fates, those who still feel a tinge of sadness, regret...and a feeling of the need to let go. Much like I had to let go of certain realisations as well, which I had done earlier in order to prevent myself from going down this steep slope of delusions that once clouded my senses.
In the end, I just hope that fate does turn around for the better of everyone else. And that if chance allows, and if differing fates meet, then probably...could be, would be...
That is why I always feel that oneself is not always flawless, and that we are not perfect in every aspect. But nevertheless, we still remind ourselves...to carry on...in our flawlessly imperfect life. Constantly searching. Probably waiting for more chances...and if so...when would it be?
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I always think to myself: "When will my fate get intertwined with another's once again? And if so, will it be purely my destiny, or will it be just another poetic tragedy? When will this chance bestow upon me? When will I find my happiness? Why not now? Why not that soon? So many whys, so little answers...
3:29 PM
Added and adjusted the stupid music streaming which cost me my whole stupid @&!$%*^%+!@ afternoon trying to adjust and reposition the music player until it doesnt make those stupid extra scroll bars appear. Sadly I'm bad at HTML and I don't know of any codes that can resolve this issue. Anyone care to help me pls? Nevertheless, I'm currently satisfied with the player. Hope you all enjoy the specially selected music (or rather just a cover-up for the song I currently like...LOl). Its called 'One Summer Night' by Kim Hyung Joong & Lee So Eun. It's one of the songs from some korean drama, I think its Glass Slippers if I'm not wrong. (oh wells, I'm not a korean drama fan or such..unlike my parents haha.) I only remember watching certain korean drama serials like Bodyguard, Famous Qi Princesses, All-In, Jia You Jin Shun... and partly here and there for other shows like My Girl, My Lovely Sam-Soon, Save the last dance for me, etc. RE: to previous post on swimming at JE - skin is still peeling off like the layers of an onion; ugly, flaky, epithelial cell-ish. Haiz I wanna go swimming again sia...but next time I'm definitely not forgetting my "Anti-sunburnt-until-become-lobster-until-reddish, itchy, painful-skin-which-let-to-a-waste-of-time" lotion. Or you can call it 'suntan lotion' for shorts.PS: Bummer man...I hope I can get into NTU...plsplsplsplsplsplsplsplspslpslpslspls
9:42 PM
Woot!! Gave my blog a new background since I was sick of the previous one alrdy. Sky blue background this time, and added a picture I found on deviantart which is the girl wif the cool shades. I kinda liked the picture since it sort of fashionable, stylish yet the girl seems to be searching for something. Haha I dunno la up to anyone to decipher a picture that paints a thousand words. The title of my blog was edited onto the picture using Paint. Really like the fonts I used. So happy now got new theme(s) for my blog. Comments on it pls my frens!!
3:49 PM
Went swimming with Glenn today. At Jurong East Swimming Complex.Haven't been there in a long while, and it was Glenn's 1st time there. We definitely had fun at the wave pool LOl!! It was years since I remembered my first time trying their wave pool when they were still newly opened. Was really cool to swim against teh waves, or just let yourself float around like a dead guy in the crashing sea of waves (or chlorinated water in this case..yea, cool oso la haha) Tanned abit too. Okok maybe TOO much. So much so that I'm now a sun-burnt lobster...red and tender. After cooked, please serve hot. Enjoy. Darn the strong sun in the afternoons. My bad that I had no sunblock or suntan lotion with me. Oh wells, regardless of the raw reddish skin covering my body at the moment, had a great day getting some workout in the pool. Swam the olympic length of the normal lap pools as well. Quite tiring, considering that I haven't really dedicated myself to swim as often as when was taking swimming lessons for NASSA survival course....roar...gotta improve man...Atfer swimming, very late lunch (around 4pm) at KFC. Bought Bandito pocket meal and added coleslaw and shrooms burger....hungry man is a 'sian'-zed man.Went home logged on my lappy online to check our final semester grades...uurrh not that fantastic la FYP grade at least satisfied this time round...after tt Zhao asked me to dota with Raymond, Gandi and Lemony. Tiring day, nonetheless brought home a whole lot of sun-burnt skin. My skin is really gonna itch and feel painful tomorrow. Sianz.
10:16 PM
OK, so now i have ample time to blog abt the other classes!! (sorry to FengMei for the delay, dun be angry kays?).
Presenting.....Class of W3-6P!!
OMG i tell u this class is so hyperactive (and i mean it in a nice way k? cos i was too ya.) haha. We certainly had loads of fun and laughter together. And afew noticable characters in class like Raymond and Tern Poh for instance. They never fail to get the class into riotous laughter and soon everyone pitches into the fun lol. And also not forgetting Feng Mei, whom always likes to poke fun at me (literally poke! LOL) and called me her 'fave boy', until Sam Kuang stole the title away frm me hahaha. Hey no hard feelings yea? Not that I'm jealous but haha, remember its all fun and games !
Although the times spent together was'nt that long, I believe that the heartfelt moments we shared will stay in our hearts forever and ever, becoming a part of us as we grow to these fond memories. Thanks for sharing the good times with me W3-6P!!
9:14 PM
(Erase my love...letting go...)