(Erase my love...letting go...)
It's pretty interesting, not to mention amusing, how fate can get intertwined and entangled, and then just break off from each other to form completely new destinies.
Watching from the sidelines wasn't difficult, although it does drag you into the situation alittle bit here and there. But otherwise, I was completely free from any entanglements that could have suffocated me in the first place.
Come to think of it, it's really surprising how I could have been (or was previously) in the picture, and when I pulled out of the situation, discovered another surprising find of sorts, where someone else stepped in and thus, a new fate cum destiny was born.
Certainly felt like I gave up my fate (or should that be my unfateful fate) so that 2 other fates could be bound together, haha. Yea, but still...I can't stop thinking about this seemingly interconnected situation, and yes, it definitely looks like something out of a korean drama's script.
Hard to believe, but the 'sad/depressed/forlorn/regretful/giving up/waiting for him/her' kind of scenario and emotions that you see in korean dramas are somewhat vivid adaptations of real-life experiences, much like what I've witnessed and heard within my life as well.
So is it cruel fate that has blindsided this situation against my favor without any chances bestowed upon me, OR has fate brought mercy to me, for realising these things earlier in advance, and pulled me out of the trap of emotions and despair right before I sank deeper, and therefore had helped kept myself in a clear state of mind? Probably both are true, but who's to say which overrules the other? I guess its hard to tell, and of course, hard to comprehend such stuff. Even for myself.
Nevertheless, feelings had/have been hurt, fates have changed dramatically, life still goes on normally for me (since its already not too much of a concern for me), but I can't help thinking about the others who were caught unawares within this entanglement of destined fates, those who still feel a tinge of sadness, regret...and a feeling of the need to let go. Much like I had to let go of certain realisations as well, which I had done earlier in order to prevent myself from going down this steep slope of delusions that once clouded my senses.
In the end, I just hope that fate does turn around for the better of everyone else. And that if chance allows, and if differing fates meet, then probably...could be, would be...
That is why I always feel that oneself is not always flawless, and that we are not perfect in every aspect. But nevertheless, we still remind ourselves...to carry on...in our flawlessly imperfect life. Constantly searching. Probably waiting for more chances...and if so...when would it be?
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I always think to myself: "When will my fate get intertwined with another's once again? And if so, will it be purely my destiny, or will it be just another poetic tragedy? When will this chance bestow upon me? When will I find my happiness? Why not now? Why not that soon? So many whys, so little answers...
3:29 PM
(Erase my love...letting go...)